Extract from Megadeth's "Peace Sells....But who's Buying?"

What do you mean, "I don't believe in God"?
I talk to him every day.
What do you mean, "I don't support your system"?
I go to court when I have to.
What do you mean, "I can't get to work on time"?
I got nothing better to do
And, what do you mean, "I don't pay my bills"?
Why do you think I'm broke? Huh?

If there's a new way,
I'll be the first in line.
But, it better work this time.

What do you mean, "I hurt your feelings"?
I didn't know you had any feelings.
What do you mean, "I ain't kind"?
I'm just not your kind.
What do you mean, "I couldn't be president, of the United States of America"?
Tell me something, it's still "We the people", right?

Can you put a price on peace?
Peace sells...,but who's buying?

Behold!

Well, well...finally the day has come. Lunch? Conversation? Hahahaha. Aww yea. People told us that they are going to drop the entire idea of internship in the ministry. Don't ask me whether it's a good thing or a bad thing. It's just a matter of interpretation (sounds familiar?). Actually to say that serving without a title really sounds good, i mean, REAL GOOD! Haha. Nothing need to be justified here. Don't really want to elaborate on that. I'll just proceed to what I am feeling at the moment. I know...I know I'm really good at pretending (Hehe....), but this is seriously a very bitter pill to swallow. No shoulders to cry on (arghh...why do I have to say this???!!!)...so I actually had a tearful time on my bed when I reach home...LOL. More than a year (izzit?) as an intern, and well I would say that I've done things to impress people a lot times (not the youth, but rather the rest of the leaders). A lot of sacrifices are made. Somehow I'm made to believe that certain things are not helping growth. I was sad thinking of how much things I've done, how much effort that I've put into this, and in the end, instead of receiving a kiss on the cheek, I ended up sitting down in this cosy (cold?) environment, trying to finish my lunch and later listened to man (men?) showing us appreciation...trying to explain things in nice ways. Probably as a "hard-to-work-with" person, I wouldn't buy into that stuff. Man, I got eyes to see, eyes to hear (nose to smell? This sounds like the LEO pledge). All the things that I've avoided because of the ministry doesn't seem to make any sense. I've tried hard to be "committed" and this is what I get. Whoohooo? There are many things that I've not experienced because of submission (now I must confess..haha..read the next line!). I didn't get to spend much of my weekends at home, eventhough I need a lot of rest because of my hectic schedule on weekdays. My parents have been nagging me, and I got to keep quiet about this, just because I want to make it for the people. I thought of leaving the ministry immediately after camp, but seriously reconsidered the decision and decided to stay on a bit longer. And this is the best part: I tried to look good in front of the people, so....I decided not to even have a crush, and I've failed badly, making myself look dumb (coz people laugh at me as I always talk about possibilities and stuff), and missed out on girls....*sobz*... ='( ...and people tell me, "Serve you right!". Anyway, that's only part of the reason I didn't get so involved in boy girl stuff. Another reason is that I chicken out in front of girls (haha), I mean I'm not courageous enough, that is. Ouch, that sucks. Terribly miserable. I know your laughing at me again, so stop it!!! Haha. Crap. Well, that's basically some of the things in my mind at the moment. Of course, not to forget, there are better things that happened. Got closer to you guys (you know who). Learned how to think and see things out of the box. Got to see the bigger picture of the things happening. Really, we all learned a lot. =P
*PS: If I'm not discouraged, why did I shed tears? Those couldn't be tears of joy, I assume?

"They say, that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe
But I, I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave
Sometimes, I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow, I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder "

~The Rasmus, with their song "In the shadows".

Was listening to The Rasmus this morning, and was really paying attention to the lyrics of this song, which is officially released in Finland a couple of years ago. Nice song, cool lyrics. Sweet. Another hi 5 for that.

Talk to the hand!

Merry Christmas!!!

Faith of a child

Was lookin for CDs to listen to on my shelf, and somehow came across this song:

A child will walk, a child will run
A child with faith, faith will fly
Anita hasn't walked right since she was small
Her legs are short and twisted not straight and tall
She learned when she was young how to deal with the rejection
Cast into a world with all it standards of perfection
Most people looked away with a downward glance
And as a beautiful young woman, she was never asked to dance
Her dreams were just as lofty as the girl next door
And she remember what her father said when she couldn't take no more
He said
Someday your going to soar like a eagle,
You will run and never grow tired
You'll become a new creation
If you just keep the faith of a child,
Keep the faith of a child
Now Anita lives alone in a paper mill town
In a one room apartment at sixth and brown
She's got a steady job well its all right for now
She has plans for moving on if she can make it some how
Her brown hands are folded as she bows her head to pray
Over doughnuts and some coffee she made up yesterday
Her mind begins to travel, she gives thanks to the lord
And a angel stands beside her, points out to the door
And said
Today you going to soar like a eagle
You will run and never grow tired
You've become a new creation
For you have kept the faith of a child
Kept the faith of a child, kept the faith of a child

Bill Miller, "Faith of a child"

Marvelous Light...

Yesterday I was playing my guitar....playing random stuff...Led Zep, Black Sabbath, the Darkness, Nirvana...and tonnes of cool stuff...I even tried to make my own song...but it didn't work (of course...coz I'm not really that good) =P. Well, later while I was having a break from these, somehow I felt like playin' just some normal chords stuff. So I just grab my classical guitar, and started playing some songs. And well, when I came across to this song, I was rather emotional. You know, I was reminded about the ups and downs this entire year. Well, I just want to thank Him for all the people in my life, for the various circumstances that I'm placed in, to make me see things with a wider perspective, for the guidance and the love.

My prayer: Help all of us to help one another in seeking You in this walk, TOGETHER. Teach us to do the things we say and continue to discover you in every part of Your creation. In Your mercy, we ask for Your forgiveness.

The lyrics of the song:

Lead us out of darkness and into your marvelous light

When we wander into valleys far from home
Where shadows hover over our souls
Find us in your mercy
Savior of the world

You are the light of the world
(Jesus is the light)
You are the way, the truth and the life
(you are the life)
You are the light of the world
(Jesus is the light)
Lead us out of darkness
And into your marvelous light

Sanctify our spirits
Purify our minds
As we look to you, eyes open wide
Give us understanding
Set our hearts on fire

Give us understanding
Set our hearts on fire
Fill us with desire

You are the light of the world...

Nice shirt...

This is the slogan on one of my favourite T-shirts....A gift for my 17th birthday... Well, I'm gonna be 19 real soon...

Don't be surprised to find out that I'm actually listening to this...

开不了口

曲: 周杰倫
Qu: Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

词: 徐若瑄
Ci: Xu Ruo Xuan
Lyrics: Vivian Hsu

Translation: wackycashew - www.jay-chou.net

才離開沒多久就開始 擔心今天的妳過得好不好
cai li kai mei duo jiu jiu kai shi dan xin jin tian de ni guo de hao bu hao
I’ve only left for a short while and already started to worry about how you’re doing today

整個畫面是妳 想妳想的睡不著
zheng ge hua mian shi ni xiang ni xiang de shui bu zhao
My mind’s filled with you, as I think about you I can’t fall asleep

嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣 還有在妳身上香香的味道
zui du du na ke ai de mo yang hai you zai ni shen shang xiang xiang de wei dao
Your cute expression when you pout, and also the fragrance on your body

我的快樂是妳 想妳想的都會笑
wo de kuai le shi ni xiang ni xiang de dou hui xiao
My happiness is you, as I think about you I always smile

Chorus 1

沒有妳在我有多難熬
mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao
When you’re not here, it’s so hard for me to bear

(沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱)
(mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao duo fan nao)
(When you’re not here, it’s so hard for me to bear, so troubled)

沒有妳煩我有多煩惱
mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao
When I don’t have you to think about, I am so troubled

(沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)
(mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao duo nan ao)
(When I don’t have you to think about, I am so troubled, so hard for me to bear)

穿過雲層 我試著努力向妳奔跑
chuan guo yun ceng wo shi zhe nu li xiang ni ben pao
Breaking through the clouds, I tried hard to run to you

愛才送到 妳卻已在別人懷抱
ai cai song dao ni que yi zai bie ren huai bao
Just when love arrived, you were already in someone else’s arms

Chorus 2

就是開不了口讓她知道
jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao
I just can’t open my mouth to let her know

我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑
wo yi ding hui he hu zhe ni ye dou ni xiao
I will surely protect you and make you laugh

妳對我有多重要 我後悔沒讓妳知道
ni dui wo you duo zhong yao wo hou hui mei rang ni zhi dao
You are so important to me, I regret not letting you know

安靜的聽妳撒嬌 看妳睡著一直到老
an jing de ting ni sa jiao kan ni shui zhao yi zhi dao lao
Quietly listening to you whine, watching you sleep till we grow old

就是開不了口讓她知道
jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao
I just can’t open my mouth to let her know

就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到
jiu shi na me jian dan ji ju wo ban bu dao
Those mere simple sentences, I can’t say them

整顆心懸在半空我只能夠遠遠看著
zheng ke xin xuan zai ban kong wo zhi neng gou yuan yuan kan zhao
My whole heart hangs in the air, I can only watch from afar

這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我
zhe xie wo dou zuo de dao dan na ge ren yi jing bu shi wo
I can do all these things but that person is already not me

It's Christmas in a week's time...and I am......Sad...
*Sigh* ='(

You Are 64% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

Youth camp

Said certain things that which have to be said...well enjoy the time being with my friends. Who cares i don't get enough sleep this few days....haha. Cool, and sad as well.

Sleepy...

Become true brothers and sisters...

Extract from NEWBEC - 10th of December 2006

"the old Rabbi when asked how people could tell when the night has ended and the day has degun, replied, "It's when you can look in the face of any man or woman and see that he is your brother or she is your sister. Because if you cannot do this, then no matter what time it is, it is still night"
(Hoffsummer)

SHIFTS IN OUR RELATIONSHIPS
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It is very important to extend our sense of family to include people who are poor and people of other races, cultures and religions. We need to see them as persons with equal dignity, as children of the One God, our ABBA. We are all called to move from preoccupation with power, wealth, possessions and prestige to embrace the kingdom velaus of solidarity, service, humility, simplicity, forgiveness and universal love.
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Wherever life is enhanced or broken life restored, wherever we find joy and true happiness, wherever people build community wuth vital life-giving relationships, there the Kingdom has taken root.
(John Fullenbach in Throw Fire)

Picks

My collection of guitar picks...looks cool...except for the Fender one...which looks a bit worn out...

Listening to: Led Zeppelin - Babe I'm Gonna Leave You

Babe, baby, baby, I'm gonna leave you.
I said baby, you know I'm gonna leave you.
I'll leave you when the summertime,
Leave you when the summer comes a-rollin',
Leave you when the summer comes along.

Babe, babe, babe, babe, babe, babe, baby, mmm, baby
I don't wanna leave you,
I ain't jokin' woman, I've got to ramble.
Oh, yeah, baby, baby, I'll be leavin',
Really got to ramble.
I can hear it callin' me the way it used to do,
I can hear it callin' me back ho--oo-ome!

Babe, oh, Babe, I'm gonna leave you
Oh, baby, you know, I've really got to leave you
Oh, I can hear it callin' me
I said, don't you hear it callin' me the way it used to do?
Oh!

I know, I know, I know I'm never, never, never, never, never, never, never,
Gonna leave you babe
But, I got to go away from this place,
I've got to quit you, yeah
Oh!! Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby,
Oh, don't you hear it callin' me?
Oh, woman, woman, I know, I know
It feels good to have you back again
And I know that one day baby, it's gonna really grow, yes it is.
We gonna go walkin' through the park every day.
Come what may, every day, oh
My, my - my - my, my, my babe
I'm gonna leave you. Goin'
I'm gonna quit you baby
It was really, really good.
You made me happy every single day.
But now... I've got to go away!
Oh, oh

Baby, baby, baby,
That's when it's callin' me
I said that's when it's callin' me back home...

Prayers

Well, have a look at some quotes from this people, look at what they have to say about something that they believe in, and to learn to look at things from different prespectives....

When we pray to God we must be seeking nothing - nothing. ~Saint Francis of Assisi

Give a man a fish, and you'll feed him for a day; give him a religion, and he'll starve to death while praying for a fish. ~Author Unknown

Prayer is not merely an occasional impulse to which we respond when we are in trouble: prayer is a life attitude. ~Walter A. Mueller

Certain thoughts are prayers. There are moments when, whatever be the attitude of the body, the soul is on its knees. ~Victor Hugo, Les Misérables, 1862

God can pick sense out of a confused prayer. ~Richard Sibbes

God speaks in the silence of the heart. Listening is the beginning of prayer. ~Mother Teresa

“Don't pray for lighter burdens, but for stronger backs.”

“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”
~Mahatma Gandhi

“Pray as though everything depended on God. Work as though everything depended on you.”
~St. Augustine

“God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in any other way. The way we learn those lessons is not to deny the feelings but to find the meanings underlying them.”
~ Stanley Lindquist

“We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.”
~ Albert Einstein

“We're not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be”
~ C.S. Lewis

“God makes three requests of his children: Do the best you can, where you are, with what you have, now”

“When you say a situation or a person is hopeless, you are slamming the door in the face of God.”
~Charles L. Allen

Pray as if everything depended upon God and work as if everything depended upon man.
~Francis Cardinal Spellman

Depressing stuff

The more i think about the thing that I'm gonna be doing in a couple of weeks, the more it saddens me. Well, guess certain things...they just won't happen in your favor. So, have I any choice? And now the cliche comes in: Gotta move on.

Sophia Bush

Sophia Anna Bush was born on July 8, 1982 in Los Angeles, California. She grew up in Pasadena, California. The daughter of Charles and Maureen Bush, Sophia is an only child. Sophia originally started acting at her high school, Westridge School for Girls. Theater was a requirement at her school. This was something she was originally irritated about, but she fell in love with being on the stage. In 2000, Sophia was crowned the Pasadena Rose Queen. She attended USC for three years majoring in journalism. At USC, she was a member of the Kappa Kappa Gamma sorority. She left USC a year early when she got her role on "One Tree Hill".

In 2002, Sophia got her start in acting with the role of Sally in "Van Wilder". That same year, she also appeared in HBO's "Point of Origin" and the independent feature "Learning Curves". Sophia was originally cast in the role of Kate Brewster in "Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines". She worked on set for several days, but was deemed 'too young' to play the role. The role was recast with Claire Danes. In 2003, she booked guest appearances on "Sabrina, the Teenage Witch" (playing Fate Mackenzie) and "Nip/Tuck" (playing Ridley).

Following her guest appearances, she booked her breakout role, the feisty cheerleader Brooke Davis, on "One Tree Hill". Currently filming the fourth season of "One Tree Hill", she's kept busy during the summer hiatuses filming four different movies. During the 2004 hiatus, she filmed her first big screen movie role as Zoe Lang in "Supercross". Keeping even busier with the 2005 hiatus, Sophia filmed both the horror movie "Stay Alive" and the teen comedy "John Tucker Must Die". In 2006, she filmed "The Hitcher" centering on Sophia's character, Grace, it is a remake of the 1986 horror movie of the same name.

In 2003, on the set of "One Tree Hill" Sophia met actor Chad Michael Murray. They would date for many months, getting engaged in May of 2004. They were married on April 16, 2005 in California. The marriage would last only five months before Sophia announced they were separating on September 26, 2005. Sophia filed for an annulment of the marriage in February 2006.

Sophia loves dogs and currently owns three of them. In her spare time, she enjoys scrap-booking, reading, and hanging out with her friends. One of her favorite TV shows is Law & Order: SVU. During the filming of One Tree Hill, Sophia lives in Wilmington, North Carolina with co-star Bevin Prince (One Tree Hill's Bevin).

2nd of December

Today, I met up with Jason and J Yao after my usual once-a-fortnight first aid course. Well, while waiting saw Justine so just walked around till the time they arrived. Since my phone is no longer working…well it’s just troublesome when it comes to contacting people..sighz =’( Hehe…Anyway Jason reached the mall around 12 I guess…and then went lookin for J Yao…and had lunch first…yea of course…bon appetite…haha…eatin … that’s what we do all the time… I mean most of the time =P Lunch with Nicholas and Theresa as well. All of us are being just pure blurry and got lost at various points in our conversation. Oh well…hehe… Kutu who has moved along after NS, grown his hair long, but decided get a haircut. Well, later he went to Phillipe Sum’s for a 29 bucks haircut la…haha….expensivenya…haha. After that, we just walked around and yea…got a place to sit down and just talked bout the stuff that I was facing. Yupz….frustrating stuff. We sat there for awhile and just talked bout other random stuff as well… and we went to the cyber café don’t know before or after sharing bout these stuff. Being in the cyber café for that hour, according to them, was lousy. Haha. They were complaining bout the PCs lagging, pixels in the screen and some other stuff la…hehe. Basically, we just walked around doing nothing after that so we decided to go get some snacks. And then we started talking again. Later, when we’re supposed to get public transport home... I sorta “missed” the bus, so we continued chatting. “Coming back to Ipoh is boring.” Haha!! That’s what they said. And J Yao suddenly had this cool backpacking idea, you know. But it’s not really practical here in M’sia and ya, one day gonna probably get to a cooler place and we’ll do that…aww yea! Maybe it’s kinda boring doin nothing in the mall, guess it’s cool that we can at least meet each other and share bout stuff. Not much chances to do something like this nowadays… And there goes a day. By the time I reached home it’s 4.15, I just turned on the pc for awhile and later went to get a nap. A call from mom in KL woke me up…and yea now I’m doin this…hehe. And I’m cooking rice for the first time! I mean plain rice only…Well I seriously don’t know what’s it gonna look and taste like… And I think I've lost the bracelet she gave me a couple months ago...so sad... :(

Things to ponder upon...Wow...

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship and find out you still care for that person.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens but oftentimes we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back!
Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his heart.

Never say good-bye if you still want to, try never give up if you still feel you can go on , never say you don't love a person anymore if you can't let go.

Love comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed to those who still believe, although they've been betrayed, to those who still need to love, although they've
been hurt before, and to those who have the courage and faith to build trust again.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Hope you find the one that makes you smile. :)

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! Hope you dream of that special someone.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy and enough money
to buy me gifts.

Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.

The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves, and not twists them with our own image - otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.