Troubles? Thank you.

It just troubles me that a lot of things that I thought I knew doesn't really make sense nowadays...It's like these things doesn't amount to anything or perhaps they're not really that relevant to me anymore. These few months hasn't been the most pleasant period in my life journey...well it's involves lots of thinking...and I tried to define things at another point of view, yet acknowledging the simplicity of my mind and taking the opinions of the people around me into consideration. It is more than a struggle for me to relearn things sometimes and take a deeper look into something that I assume that I've already known, from various perspectives, having been taught to accept things as its own. Somehow at a certain level logical thinking is kind of being neglected. I'm afraid to ask the so called "clumsy" questions which are not that clumsy after all. I dare not ask these questions coz it may seem to challange my convictions and these thoughts may contradict my personal beliefs, AND I wouldn't want to change my mindset. As a person who has been living in comfort, it is really hard for me to look at something differently and get my hands dirty. Sometimes I just don't know what is the whole deal about having doubts. As if having that, is the end of the world. What if, I'm not certain bout what I believe...probably having some doubts, will it not make me a person who continues seeking the meaning of life?

"The doubt of an earnest, thoughtful, patient and laborious mind is worthy of respect. In such doubt may be found indeed more faith than in half the creeds."
~John Lancaster Spalding~

Found this quotation on the net. Well it's worth thinking bout what's the meaning behind these words. Probably we'd never seen things from this angle before...

I was just thinking, why in the world am I put in my current situation, and how did I end up being me. Sadly, if I'm hoping for an explanation for that, I will never get it. By the way, I consider myself as having a rather relaxed life. Should my life be in discomfort, what would my life look like? Would I still be...me? Easy for me to say, "Life sucks...I gotta go thru this...and this..and that...blaa blaa...". What about the people living out there, who are being oppressed in a way or two? Oppresion may be something subtle. We wouldn't know. What about the homeless, the sick, the aged and all peoples out there who hopes for a better life but never gets it? Are their lives any better than ours? It always strikes me when I read about stories of people from other parts of the world, who are underprivileged. Emotions come in. But what can I do? Anyway, who came up with the idea of ideality in the first place? Should life be something ideal, I think life has lost it's essence. Life, at the end of the day, is still something which is full of struggles, pain and brokeness, apart from the things that we crave for desperately, in the likes of happiness and joy, despite our efforts to move away from the hardships in life. I'm not saying that craving for joy is something bad, but rather I'm asking, "Why the need to cast off hardships from our lives?" Henry J. Tillman once said, "Life is something that everyone should try at least once." Try what? I have no idea at all. At this point of time, what I can do is to seek and live this life with the people around me, mixing with people from various backgrounds, and walk together as a community, coz this life is not about ME, but about ALL the people. It is through exploring and experiencing that one can have a greater insight about what life is all about. Struggles do happen throughout our lives and it brings forth growth. Well, it takes lots of courage to learn to look at the bigger picture of things and be humble enough to accept everyone and also to remember that we're HUMAN, real human beings, probably with blemishes here and there. Acceptance >>> We all bleed the same. Accept each other despite the imperfections in each other's way of living. It is by befriending each other that makes this life worth living, not only for ourselves, but for all who are looking for somewhere to belong. After everything I've written down here, I'm still the same person. Nothing's changed. Talk is cheap. It's always easier said than done (yea....). Yet again, we are given the rights to make choices. Nothing happens unless decisions are made and actions are taken. Don't know bout y'all but it has always been a TOUGH thing for me when it comes to decision making. I don't live and make decisions on behalf of someone else, but it is something more applicable to support them as they walk, and as they fall, help em to pick themselves up. Giving oneself for the service of the good of humanity is better than counting personal abundance. Humanity is something too wide to be expressed in words and it takes a lot, to understand. As far as inclusiveness is concerned, all things, including the birds, the trees and any living things, are made for a greater good, and a common good. Well, it's good to pick up something slowly along the way, rather than rushing through something and learned nothing in the end. Aww man... it's 3 in the morning and err...time to sleep. Adios mis amigos!

Quotes:

"The goal of life is living in agreement with nature."
~Zeno, Greek Philosopher (335 BC - 264 BC)~

"All growth is a leap in the dark, a spontaneous unpremeditated act without the benefit of experience."
~Henry Miller~

"Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods."
~Aristotle~

"I think that somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision."
~Eleanor Roosevelt~

"If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is a compromise."
~Robert Fritz~

"...what about the statue in California currently said to be crying bloody tears? Why worry about the alleged weeping of a plaster effigy when so many actual human beings have reason to cry?
~Anna Quindlen, Newsweek, 01-02-06~

"To believe in...a guiding force because someone tells you to is the height of stupidity. We are given senses to receive our information within. With our own eyes we see, and with our own skin we feel. With our intelligence, it is intended that we understand. But each person must puzzle it out for himself or herself."
~Sophy Burnham~

Man...there's something going on which I really can't take it...sounds pretty simple..but then...*sigh*...it's something i can't comprehend...sadly. It's bout this 6 year old kid...and he bothers me lots...well he's my lil' bro (yup yup yup) and I just can't stand him really...haha...he's just driving me up the wall. 12 years the age gap...and err...argh...dunno why must it happen this way...but gotta b patient though. Was having dinner with my family somewhere in town...n then i was really frustrated with him...u know...his attitude...he's kinda being pampered...so no choice le...and I just told my parents that next time I wouldn't wanna follow em out for meals...as long as the kid is around...aih...so bad...anyway there could be a way to get over this...a struggle or two would be nice...hehe. Argh...dunno how many dudes and dudettes who are facin this out there...well...n understand the circumstances I'm facing...just dunno. Cool though. Coz i've been complainin dat err...my life is quite plain n simple...well this should b something cool 2 help shape a betta person in me...yea..Peace!

Blur dude signin off...